Washing up the rest of the dishes from last night’s dinner while tonight’s steams inches away. A couple of feet beyond, the white wine you wanted to chill quickly and forgot in the freezer thaws. I’ve never seen a winecicle before now.
The alcohol is hitting me a little faster than I expected. I hastily wash the knives before it’s dangerous to do so.
We were playing in the surf at Ocean Beach with Fiver and his little rubber ball. Unseen and unheard by both of us, my phone decided to plumb the deeps and now sleeps with the fishes.
Needless to say my new phone’s addressbook is rather empty. So email me your number, or better yet, call me. I’d love to hear from you. You know who you are.
trying to work, and all I can think about is the pain centered around my left hip and butt cheek. I’ve been shifting constantly since I got here 20 minutes ago, trying to find a position where it doesn’t hurt. I’m doomed.
So yesterday shortly after I posted I spent 20 minutes groaning and flailing trying to get myself up off the toilet. Fewer things in my life have been so humbling. Eventually with the help of the towel rack and sink, I levered myself off and onto my knees on the floor. from there it was both hands on the bathtub rim, and several hand holds on shelves, the sink, the shower curtain, slowly and painfully pulling myself upright.
I decided I couldn’t wait the 5 hours until my chiro appointment, and slowly got my clothes on and went to the ER. An hour later I walked out when prescriptions for 2 painkillers and 1 muscle relaxant. I really should have gone to the urgent care center that I normally go to when injured, but that involved more walking and they also have more of a “treat the symptom, not the cause” philosophy in the office, with the addition of 100% of the time also starting a physical therapy regimen.
Disappointed, I decided to keep my chiro appointment. Turns out he wasn’t just a chiropractor, but he also practices this thing called Active Release Technique. ART involves finding affected attachment points for soft tissue pain, pressing on them as hard as possible, while the patient moves the affected limb through it’s full range of motion (or as much as they’re able.) The chiro stuff was nothing. The ART stuff was incredibly painful. But even during the one session there were noticeable improvements - at the start I could lift my straightened left leg maybe 10 degrees. By the end if was up near 90.
Apparently my sacrotuberus ligament on the left side of my pelvis had pulled my pelvis out of alignment, which explains the pain in both my sacrum and hip socket. This also lead to the rest of my troubles - pelvis shifted one way, lumbar spine shifted the other, with both thoracic and cervical areas shifted as well, everything compensating for the misalignment below. The ART centered around that ligament, and other attachment points in the area (hamstrings, hip rotators, etc). The chiro adjustments were to correct the overcompensation.
I’d never been to a chiropractor before, and didn’t really know what was going to happen. He did 5 adjustments - left and right lumbar, thoracic, and left and right neck. The lumbar adjustments were the first, and let me tell you, feeling my spine pop that many times down that low was incredible. The neck was also incredible, but much more shocking. It was almost like when you hear a loud, sharp sound. A gunshot, thunder when lighting strikes very close to you, a car backfire. You blink uncontrollably, shocked, heart racing. If there’s no echo you’re not sure if the sound actually happened. It was almost like that. My eyes were already closed, but it happened so fast - my head tilted slightly toward one shoulder, and then all of a sudden the loudest thing I’ve ever heard. I don’t really remember the feeling of my head twisting at all. Just the sound.
body
sitting here in my towel, looking at the house we’ve made. sitting here on the couch, chilled in the breeze blowing through the house through all the open windows. you like fresh air. sitting here, trying to find some way to sit so that my back and hip don’t erupt in pain sharp enough to make me cry out in a weird, twisted grunt. Like it did when I walked into the bathroom, when I bent over to take off my pants, like it did when I was climbing into and out of the scalding bath.
I know I’ve gone through pain like this before. Pain that makes me limp, that keeps me from running with my puppy, that makes me feel like an old man more than any grey hair on my chin or at my temples can.
It kinda freaks me out that the last time I experienced pain like this was almost exactly one year ago. Anyone have a guess as to why? Maybe some weird allergic reaction? body freaks out from pollen and decides to attack cartilage in my hip and disks in my lower back? Anyway, I tried acupuncture then, giving chiro a try this time (3:20pm today. cross your fingers.)
it’s amazing how grumpy chronic pain can make you. it’s almost like every time someone talks to me it makes the pain worse. and yet i’m lonely. i want people around me, and get pissed off at them when they are. hopefully the adjustment i’ll get this afternoon will fix that too. it’s driving me nuts, and costing me people I love.
mind
committed code to MonoDevelop to use their lexer/parser for parsing the DebuggerDisplayAttribute format. This reduces the amount of cut&pasted code between mdb and MD somewhat, which is nice. The remaining duplicate code I’m hoping to get shared between the two products soon.
